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hiya...justa short update of what has been happenin around...although u (kung may nagbabasa man neto) can also check out raxonn for more details (kung makakarelate ka) since that bloggie seems more homey to me now =D

early mornin (around past 12-3am) of may20:
this had been sooper special for me. i just loved that deep soothing voice...and that slow steady breathing. YM has never served me better. my fondness of him just dramatically increased for some reason. and yes i told him i did (samin n lang yun kung anuman yung sinabi ko). everytime he would softly say my name, there goes his affection, furiously surging through my veins like a mad river. sayang, he was too far away. +_+

drama

may21, Town:
aios ang day nato. although it totally made a fungus outta me (since ako lamang po mga kapatid ang walang date. aargh! parang wallflower! i think i just felt how these lasses felt..urk~~), i must say i did enjoy.
NBS was the place both eros and dan chose to wait in (although they didnt talk ha!). after grabbin em both we went to the cinemas to catch starwars. the movie, as expected was fab although i must have understood only 75% of the whole flick. i bought P60-onion rings to keep my duodenum company during the time. after watchin, we started for picture city. uhm...nahihiya rin pala sa cam ang male species. timezone came right after. cool time around, although we were given a single P500 (ba yun?) game card instead of five P100s. kainis no? di kasi nakikinig eh. we ate pizza after that. liz was feelin her tum-tum grumbling na kasi. i bet everyone did nman eh (except me kasi i had my onion rings =D) kaso nga lang, nagkakahiyaan pa. i took the fotos na rin sa picCT. a lil while sa timezone uli after eating. tapos, uwian na. dan came along with us kasi goin home for him that early meant his doom. hehe kiddin...

evening (around 10.30-12.30), may21:
an extremely upsetting time for me. i went online expecting jesse. i asked liz nman to inform him that i will be online by ten here ah. why didnt he come? its disappointing kasi 2 oras akong naghintay. when he finally responded to my IMs, wala pa atang five minutes, nawala nnman sha. nalulungkot ako. gusto ko p naman sana marinig yung boses nia ulit. i told him i was scared to love. i have never been in love. now i dont even know if this is love. alam ko nman ang mangyayari eh. pag nagkausap na ulit kami, liliparin nnman ng kilig ang lahat ng pakiramdam ko ngayon. i know, thats fine. pero ayokong isiping ganto kababaw ang persona ko. i used to say "lalaki lang yan"...eh ano na ngayon? could somebody come over and shout to my ear that same line?!

drama ulit

heller?

ahm...is this really me in here? like heck, ive been gone for a lifetime here in my personal blog ah! ive been all over blogdrive kasi...and all over YM...yep look at me now..i'm one heck of a taglisher again. this is not the ol' ja who types here on tuesdays and thursdays! well...except nung mga first posts...which were really loco, i'd say. if any darned critter would want to know whats goin on within my nutshell (and my mates' as well), i dare you to visit our bloggie: http://raxonn.blogdrive.com
go see what we're up to...

my mood currently is : UPSET
stayed up late for nothing eh? tsktsktsk...i should be sleeping by now. but i aint snorin my arse off (as if i snore) because of some male species. what do you think yer doin, mister? dont make me care too much. that isnt the route i wanna go to just yet...
...ahgahd...1:05 now...speakin of the cutie....he just IMed! whoopee! :) suddenly i dont feel so sullen anymore...bah! get outta dreamtown, young lady! yer not lil miss mush-o!
wanna check out this laddie? take a peek at http://profiles.yahoo.com/knight_o_nightmares
you might be wondering what sort of infection has gotten inside my nerves for being interested in a guy with such profile...but dont look at me like that...you gotta know this bloke first...
just one thingy...dont touch him okay? he's mine! LOL

so, um...okay. just a quick point out:
shay's got this wonderful guy (though i havent met him...teehee!) named eros. he's classmates with her. 18 years of age...i know he cares about her. yeah he does, really. shay doubts sometimes but hey cant blame laydees for that, can you?
bam's got dan on the other hand. a workin guy who turns 24 soon. i dont see anythin wrong with his age. it doesnt matter, does it? love is for every breathing soul out there. besides, what's impt is that he's being real with my mate...
kaye has told me of a certain wayne bloke. mind you, he's got yunchengco blood! make that, he's a yuchengco! now i dunno if he's really one of those class A yuchegncos. but there's no stoppin me from teasing kaye with a "hi madamme!"

alrightee gotta end here. till next time! enrolment's on 1st june, classes on the 13th...ciao!

i dream of a boy named...

...marcus

its not easy letting go of this soul

i feel stupid

but im just human

and this is my obsession

its getting extremely ridiculous everytime i think of it

its like people would look down at me and tell me to grow up

but thats it

i dont wanna grow up just yet

if God wills though

i wish somebody would take me away from it

maybe jesse would